Monday, June 11, 2007

When I am weak, He is strong.

I know you've been up at night losing sleep wondering why I haven't updated in like forever, so for the one person who is biting her nails trying to figure it out, here goes.

(I love run-on sentences.)

Forgive me if my grammar is off or I seem a little loopy. I'll just confess. I am a LOT loopy.



I just returned from a visit with my mother in Georgia. She had major surgery- double knee replacement. Let me say to you now that she is the bravest person I know. I am not sure that I could have one knee replaced, much less two at once. To CHOOSE to have this procedure is, to me, a very courageous decision.

That being said, the last few days have been very taxing on all of us. My daddy, Aunt Barbara, and me. But most of all, Mama.

I've learned a lot about my mother's courage, her frustrations, her hopes, her fears, and her God.

I am so grateful that He is my God, too.

I've learned more than I ever cared to know about speaking up for the ones you love when they cannot speak for themselves, about trusting in a new doctor, a new nursing staff, a new floor, and a new hope.

I found out that I am stronger than I ever imagined, and that His Strength is made perfect in my weakness.

And when we cannot physically or emotionally take another step, He holds our hand and takes that step for us.

When you feel all alone, even with a family member at your side, He is there.

When you press the nurse's call button and no one comes to ease the pain, He comes running.

He's there when the doctor shakes his head.

He's there in the darkness.

The cold.

The pain.

The desperation.

He is there.

He will come to your bedside and take your hand. He'll hold your hand as you hold your mama's hand.

Through all the pain and exhaustion, all you have to do is whisper "Jesus" and He will come.

And when your lips don't have the strength to form the words, He will hear you call Him from your heart.

And He will come.

He is my ever present hope, my strength, my strong tower.

And I love Him with all of my heart.

8 comments:

His Singer said...

AMEN AND AMEN.

Praying for you, Little Sister, as well as your mom. I hope you all come through it well!

{Karla} said...

praying for you!

I just ended a post with that title (When I am weak...) My post was about blowing it... (again...)

blessings,
Karla

Big Mama said...

Praying for you and your mom. I'm so grateful that we have His strength to rely on.

Janelle said...

Thank you for sharing that. What an encouragement this morning! My grandma is having knee replacement at the end of the month. She is so nervous. I will rely on your experience to pray for my sweet grandma.

Linda said...

Great testimony of faith. Connie at Little Red Hearts from God is working through things over her father's health. I'm glad God touched your heart in this and helped you sense his presence.

Mommy Dearest said...

Sorry it's been such a difficult time for you and your mama. {{Hugs}} from Georgia.

Grafted Branch said...

God bless YOU, Melanie...I could almost see you and your mom in the barren, sterile room--seemingly at the mercy of the hospital staff, but rising above it and being not at their mercy at all, really. ((hugs))

Sista Cala said...

Courageous is certainly the word for your mom. I work in a hospital and have seen some folks that have had both knees done at the same time. Consistent physical therapy is the key to quick and complete recovery.

I enjoy your blog and have tagged you w/the 8 random things tag.